I may have too many things going.

The scene around me is surreal. The house is filled with boxes from clearance hauls and Christmas prep. Games are strewn everywhere—from convention finds to review copies. Dishes are piled up, and the cats are running amuck. In moments like this, time feels like a distant concept.

I’ve talked at length about how hard it is to find time to do anything. One thing I realized early on was that communicating like this—writing, sharing, reflecting—was going to take time. Even so, I’ve been excited to share thoughts about games and other things that catch my interest.

It all sounds so good in your head when you say it out loud. What people don’t tell you is that writing comes with the same mental load and anxiety as any other creative work. When life got busier and harder, the anxiety around what I was creating—and how long it took—grew right alongside it.

The system I set up for myself was (and still is) pretty solid. I write on my commute or late at night when the day has finally quieted down. What I didn’t anticipate was how much I was already using those times without thinking about it. Maybe I put on a video to unwind. Maybe I needed that time to call pediatrician offices or argue with the phone company. When you take away the time you didn’t realize you were spending on those things, all that work has to go somewhere.

So yes, you may have noticed I haven’t written in quite a while. The post from earlier today has been sitting in my queue for months, and so much has changed since I wrote it. I’ll share more about what’s nudged me back onto the positive side of the motivation train soon, but for now I want to start by recognizing the little things we do with our time. I may not come out swinging with ambitious writing goals, at least not yet, but I’ve got a clearer understanding of when and how I’ll write alongside everything else.

And when in doubt, I’ll just go grab a doughnut.

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